My life has officially been taken over by two kids and I can't not love every moment of it. It's almost as if I forgot what it's like without two kids. It's hard- dang hard, but we've managed to stay afloat and sail as smoothly as possible for the past week and a half. With emotions ranging from big up's and down's, here is my edition of Friday Favorites: Current Life as a Family of 4.
1. Your love for your oldest grows exponentially once welcoming the second.
As mentioned in my previous post, one of my biggest fears was Han missing the birth of our second. However, one of the greatest struggles I went through during the labor and delivery process was being away from Halie. I didn't want her to think I just "left" her... But the second she walked into my hospital room and had the biggest smile on her face to see me, all my worries and wonders went away. I missed that girl dang much and she missed me just as dang much! She was so excited to receive her gifts "from" the baby sister and she had nothing but pure LOVE for her sister at their first meet. The day Janie and I came home, Halie came home from daycare and these were her first two sentences: "Hi mommy. Where baby sister?" and showed so much love towards her.
Witnessing all this, I was so proud of Halie and my love for her grew so much more- I didn't even know my heart was capable of doing so.
2. You forget about the newborn struggles and it's a harrowing deja vu when you recall them all... especially at 2am.
I was fortunate enough to nurse Halie until she was 20 months old. Which means, I was producing milk and nursing earlier this year, up until about 8 months ago! So I wasn't surprised when the lactation consultant visited me in my room at the hospital and said my colostrum was in. However, at home, I realized that even though Janie latched well, my milk actually didn't come in yet. The first two nights were terrifying- no sleep with chapped nipples. (sorry if tmi). I wanted to cry because it was so painful and somehow, I forgot about all of this... but I know it happened with Halie too. And let's not forget about day/night switched... I'm still up between 2:30-5am.. le sigh.
3. Milestones happen more frequently, making you feel like a champion parent.
Hmm, let's see. Milk finally came in? Check. No more tar poo but breastmilk poo? Check. Baby slept for +4 hour stretch? Check. Storing milk in the freezer? Check. Had time to shower? Check. Did the dishes? Check. Halie went to bed without putting up a fight? Check...
do you get my point here?
4. Your clothes fit = you feel good
The last few months of pregnancy sucked in terms of clothing. I wore clothes because I had to- if I could've, I would've just stayed in my birthday suit 24/7. It's really first world problem, but I missed wearing my normal/regular clothes and got tired of wearing the same maternity clothes over and over again. Well, few days post giving birth, I was able to fit into my normal clothes again and it feels so so amazing! I mean, even the simple things such as fitting into my regular underwear, ah~ feels so comfortable. It's true what they say about your clothes and your mood. Even if I haven't showered in days and I have baby spit up on my sleeves, I (still) feel good because I am comfortable in the clothes that I'm wearing.
5. Love Language: Touch
This might sound ridiculous but it's so nice to be able to embrace my husband and actually feel him. I mean, I can actually hug my husband and our chests embrace each other! It's a really heartwarming sensation in comparison to arms being stretched and a belly is separating us. I love getting hugs so the fact that I can once again hug my husband and it actually feels like I'm hugging my husband... is awesome.
6. Understanding of sacrifice and love is better understood and comprehensible 2nd time around.
With Halie, I really struggled with understanding and comprehending (how to make) these new sacrifices as a mom. I just wanted to go out during my maternity leave and not stay trapped in the house. I felt used and abused for my body- to feed Halie and to change her diapers. However, with Janie, I don't feel that sense of use&abuse. Instead, I'm actually enjoying being a temporary SAHM. I find joy in keeping the house (somewhat) tidy, being able to excitedly welcome Han and Halie home when they return from their day at work/daycare, and simply, just having the energy to love and give attention to everyone around..