That's my lock screen currently. I need to remember to trust in Him constantly. If you know me, you know this is a daily struggle and battle for me. I have a hard time letting go of my own control. I hate the unknown. I am paranoid about the most ridiculous things because I think too much. I want to be able to control my own life. I guess in some sense, this is something that a lot of people actually struggle with ... without even knowing. After all, we're human.
This month, I found myself praying similar prayers in different situations multiple times.
"God, please protect Riv today as she does x,y,z."
"God, please watch over us today as we deal with x, y, z."
Then it finally turned into...
"Lord, please help me to trust you."
These prayers are said in my life all the time. When I think I've got it. I'm losing control so that I can let God do His thing. I trust him completely. I go right back down the rabbit hole of... "OK but what if this happens?"
Then again, I also wonder if God is reminding me that I don't have things under control... only He does. Perhaps He is reminding me that I can only rely on Him in this world. Either way...
I am so forgetful. So small. So easily distracted and petty. This coming week, I'm going to be put to the test once again. I won't quite go into detail of what but I'll be asking God to give me the wisdom, strength and peace that only He can give me to fully trust in who He is and what He is capable of because He is so much greater than who I am. I am nothing without Him so what more can I do than to continue to always seek Him and trust in Him.
Those who know Your name trust in You because You have not abandoned those who seek You, Yahweh. - Psalms 9:10 HCSB